This athlete
This energy queen
This person who has worked out every day
of her life
has cancer.
I cannot dignify it with giving it a capital c.
It needs to remain a lower case
part of my life.
It needs to not permeate my soul
as it permeates my body.
It needs to stay small
nondescript
insignificant
and quiet.
It is not part of who I really am
It is tiny and non important.
And yet it creeps in.
It crawls upon me during
sleep
and invades my psyche
when I least expect it.
and I struggle with how to get rid of it.
How to keep it
miniscule
and non existent
in the scheme of my life.
the struggle is real
The worry has to stay contained.
All I have now is my focus
and my determination
to not let it consume me.
Ever
Never
Forever
